January, pt. ii

January,

I'm still trying to figure out where I'm supposed to be.

Nevertheless, you've been good to me.

January

Hey, January.

Back in Idaho this month (I'm currently writing this from my apartment bedroom).

New year? Ready.

New Semester? Not.

I haven't mentally recovered from last semester, and I'm already feeling quite overwhelmed about this one.

But, I'm ready to meet new people. I like that part of school, even while I don't like a lot of school right now.

I hope this new month, new semester, and new year brings me a lot of new people to meet.

See ya in a month.

2019

Hey there, 2019.

I've got a lot of expectations of you, or more accurately, of me.

Other than the things planned, I'm not quite sure what you'll bring.

Let's see.

2018

2018,
You genuinely felt like three years.

There was the winter (Year One).
I was generally happy.
I had a lot of goals.
It was real cold in Idaho, but I loved the people there.
I didn't fully appreciate it all, though.


Then there was the summer (Year Two).
Depression hit.
Anxiety hit.
I felt like I had been misplaced from home, wherever that was.
It was real hot in Arizona, and I missed my friends.
I didn't fully realize what I had, though.


Then there was fall (Year Three).
I was back in Idaho.
My anxiety didn't really go away.
I was experiencing a real fall, and the weather was beautiful.
I was back and forth from Idaho and Arizona (for school and holidays).
I still don't know what I want, though.

2018, you've been an interesting one.

You were the year of comfort, of waiting for tomorrow, or the right moment. You were the year of many unfinished goals.

2019's gonna be different.

December, pt. ii

The last few weeks came and went too fast.

I was so excited for the semester to be over, and then it was, and then a new one is beginning too soon.

You brought some goodbyes, December. You brought a lot of ideas. You brought some stress and some turmoil, but you also brought some relief.

You brought me family. You brought me Christmas, my favorite holiday. I can celebrate my Savior, and all He's done for me.

I want to remember the feeling of Christmas, of service, and of celebrating Christ, not only during the Christmas season, but all year round.

Well, that's it, December, I guess you're over.

I'm not quite ready, January, but am I ever?